Sooooooooo one of my new year resolutions is to lose my baby weight- ALL of it. I only gained 35 lbs. or so during my pregnancy but because of all the craziness that ensued AFTER I gave birth, losing that weight has been really tough. Yup, that is one of my resolutions- another, is to resolute to EMBRACE this new body of mine- even when I get down to my goal weight, my body is not, will not ever be the same.
Tonight I gave Maeve a bath and she was doodling all over the tub with her new bath crayons. After Ryan came to get her, I turned on the shower and started scrubbing all of her "drawings" off the walls. Okay, this next part may sound a bit crazy, but we've all seen those "Dr. 90210" shows right? Where the doc. draws where he's gonna lipo you? Well I took Maeve's green crayon and started circling ON MY BODY where I wanted improvement. Sadly enough, I looked like "Shrek" by the end of it. It really doesn't matter HOW much weight I lose, I have dimples and divots in my stomach that will never, EVER go away- dimples in my thighs and butt that no amount of squats are going to take care of and extra stomach skin that is just gonna be there. That's when I made the resolution to become healthy- lose the weight, and when I reach that goal weight EMBRACE what I have. I would never get plastic surgery- I'm too chicken... but I can't help feeling really discouraged knowing that this is it- this is my post-baby body and its always going to have stretch marks, dimples, dents and divots. DANG IT :)
I am pretty open on here (my blog) but not open enough to post a pic of me in a bikini- that would scare the bravest of the brave. But perhaps, after I get down to my goal weight I might post a pic in a bikini- stretch marks and all. They're apart of me- never to be rid of, and all I can do now is embrace them and make do!